It’s 2012 and the countdown to transplant is now less than one week to the first major treatment phase…that being the mobilization phase, which involves a walloping dose of Cytoxan to stimulate the bone marrow stem cells to prepare for extraction. This will happen this coming Friday, January 13th.
(Photo taken NY Day off Palos Verdes Peninsula)
I’m told to expect to be pretty queasy for the weekend. I’m also told this will set into motion the process that will result in my hair falling out….most likely within two weeks of the Cytoxan infusion.
So this is all getting pretty real. And, yes, I’m starting to get a bit spooked about the whole thing. It’s moved beyond the abstract phase of living it out through the experiences of others who have been through this. Gradually, I’m getting to the recognition that this is happening to ME.
I’m still feeling emotionally strong and well prepared for what is coming. I’m not close to panic. My anxiety is highest for two aspects: how nauseous I will be for how long and how long it will take me to get my mojo back. I’m also taking the advice of others who have gone before me and stocking up on things I think I’ll need: Lots of entertainment, my own special blanket and pillow, a stocking cap, some washable slippers. I intend to lock into some TV series that I have not seen but have been highly recommended by friends…including Breaking Bad, Friday Night Lights and The Good Wife. I have a new iPad that will be used for this purpose. It will also serve as a way for me to keep this blog up to date. It will give me the opportunity to video conference from the hospital from my convalescence at home via FaceTime and Skype. And, right now, it allows me to watch the 3 Stooges from anywhere I happen to be.